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i hate myself :)

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i hate myself :)

2017

0h 56m

5.4(8 votes)

Documentary

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Nebbishy filmmaker Joanna Arnow documents her yearlong relationship with an open-mic poet provocateur. What starts out as an uncomfortably intimate portrait of a dysfunctional relationship and protracted mid-twenties adolescence, quickly turns into a complex commentary on societal repression, sexuality and self-confrontation through art.

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Joanna Arnow

Joanna Arnow

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James Browning Kepple

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David Arnow

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Barbara Weiserbs

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Max Karson

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Directed by: Joanna Arnow

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